Monday, May 9, 2011


We got the news Wed. night, that Grandma may not make it through the weekend. I spent a couple days there this past week, and managed to stick to my, "NO SUGAR or WHITE FLOUR," diet. It was not too hard, and seems to be getting easier mentally, but it was hard, because grandma's house is FULL of candy and treats - always has been. Also, I am nursing full time, and so I need to keep my calories up, and it was hard to find anything there that fits my guidelines. I ate a banana and a bowl of pistachios. Also, water in Garland is YUCKY! I brought my mug filled up, but ran out, and had to drink theirs. I brought bottled water the next day.

It was also hard not to be an emotional eater this weekend. I just love grandma so much, and this has all happened so suddenly. It is a stressful situation, and my mom has been the primary caregiver since Wed. night. She is exhausted. I want to help her, but I have sweet little Rhett, and he is my first priority.

So, it is Monday morning, and Grandma is still here. It seems she is even doing a little better. I would love a miracle!

Yesterday was Mother's Day. We got chocolates at church, and I gave mine to my kids. I didn't even miss them. I think I am mentally there. I was talking to a friend who told me she, "wanted it that much," (being skinny) after having a baby, and that's what kept her motivated. That really clicked for me. I also want it that much.

I am starting a new week today, and am going to run to the grocery store before everybody wakes up. I am planning the menu for the week. For some reason, I am craving lentil soup? I don't think I have ever even eaten it before. So, I am looking for a good recipe. It's Wayne's birthday on Wed night. He wants Fish Tacos, and traditional birthday cake. I still haven't decided if I'll have a piece. He would understand if I don't. Con wants cheesecake for his birthday in a few weeks. I think he would feel bad if I didn't eat his cake ;)

I baked bread yesterday. Wayne bought whipped honey... A little piece of Heaven - really. Honey is the only sweet thing I am allowed to eat, and I think I went overboard with the whipped honey. I need to do better this week.

Last time I weighed myself, I was down 6lbs. That's 6 lbs in 10 days! It is so encouraging! My jeans are even a little looser. I know it's weird, but I am thinking where I have cut the sugar down completely, and cut the fat down so much, my milk production needs both of those, and is taking it from my body - hopefully my middle. If I hadn't had such great results, I don't know if I would be able to stick to it like I have. I am 14 lbs closer to my end of June goal of losing 20lbs!